“The ultimate measure of a man is not where he stands in moments of comfort, but where he stands at times of challenge and controversy.” Martin Luther King.
Well, today I stand in times of my own personal challenge and controversy. I have been fighting my weight for many years now, half-heartedly I'll admit, but sparring none the less. Today I was perusing WW again..... to go, or not to go, that is the question..... how many times have I failed in the past and ended up heavier than I was before I joined. The lamentations began in my head, defeat, failure, followed by surrender to both. I bought a scale on the way home.....got on it tonight....Arrrrgggghhhhhhh.
My sparring with weight, is not such a weighty issue after all, methinks it is a way for me to avoid life's weighty issues. Challenge and controversy my obesity? I think not, not in the grand scheme of things. It is in fact rather self-centered.
Time to stop using the issue to deflect responsibility. "Wish me luck, as you wave me goodbye." For I am off on another weight loss oddessy....will it last longer than a few days? I pray it will, I am sick and tired, of being sick and tired and fat.
Onward into the breach I go......It is sooooo hard to take that first step, again, but there we go, I did it! Didn't I?
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