Sunday, June 3, 2007

What AM I doing?

"The great use of life is to spend it for something that will outlast it."

- William James, philosopher and psychologist

I am pondering, no, not pondering, but rather steeped in the weight of brokeness that surrounds me and distracts me. In a state of flux setting up repairs and performing the labor I can handle myself keeps me busy, tired, broke and depressed. Not enough time to think about spending my life for something that will outlast it. Would that my life was that simple. That is my initial reaction to the words of wisdom from dear William James.

On deeper reflection I realize that my troubles are very convenient, they change the focus of my life. Could it be I am happy being troubled and I am setting up troubles, just to stay troubled? That's a lot of trouble in one sentence and in one life....... Perish the thought.

But, I think I may be on to something here. Life is simply Cause and Effect, no?
If I maintain things before they break life would be a whole lot easier and less expensive. And apart from that, who am I to question William James? Though I would love to be afforded that opportunity. Maybe in my next life....

Saturday, June 2, 2007

THE UNIVERSE IS ALWAYS SPEAKING

Ever had one of those weeks? Well this has been one for me. A woodchuck is happily undermining my garage, so I spent $90 on a trap which I filled with woodchuck treats and he is blithely walking past it each day to the tunnel under the garage. On top of that ds sprained his ankle around the digging area.

The computer crashed at the office, after spending four hours on the phone with some really wonderful ( and I do mean that) Dell techs, I stayed till 6:30 pm Friday night and returned at 9.00 am Saturday morning thru 1.00 pm and the diagnostic test was still running when I left. There is a potential for a complete loss of two hard drives and 20 years of info, which was supposed to be totally secure because we have 2 hard drives, one to back-up the other. My fingers and toes are crossed that the files are not corrupted.

Coming home my old car begins grinding on the left side. I know not what it is, but suspect brakes, perhaps. On dropping it off at my mechanics, he says we need to upgrade you. I know, I know, but tell my pocket book that please.
I feel like life is spiralling down this week, all when I am reading the Power of Attraction....ha.

Then as always the Universe whispers to me in this quote I found minutes ago.

" All problems become smaller if you don't dodge them, but confront them. Touch a thistle timidly, and it pricks you; grasp it boldly and its spines crumble."

- William S. Halsey, WWII U.S. Admiral

SO being the Scot that I am by birth...Braveheart spirit and awe that. I grab the thistle..... boldly. Crumble spines, crumble problems, crumble lack.